In my previous post I talked about how last year spiritually I got knocked down and for a good portion of it I was in fog.  I can look back now and see that I was living an unhealthy life in many ways.  I gained a bunch of weight that I had worked so hard the fall before to shed by eating junk, getting away from my daily workout routine and really not caring.  I was also not being healthy spiritually.  I put on a show to others and stopped reading the Bible and became very distant from God.  As I described in my post, I let several things get to me and I just didn’t know to care.  I was on cruise control.

My entire life was on cruise control.  I went to and from the church office in a daily cruise.  I took my daughter too and from school.  I had a routine that kept me buys and kept me from seeing how far in the dumps I was.  I would wake up, shower, get her ready, say goodbye to my wife, drop my daughter off at child care, come to the office, check email, check Facebook, do what I had to do for church (get things ready for Sunday and Wednesday), stop about five o’clock and go pick up my daughter, pick up fast food, eat dinner, say goodbye to my wife as she went to work, play games with my daughter, put her to bed, watch tv, play on the computer, go to bed and repeat the cycle.  This happened from April 2012 until October 2012.  And then I started getting awake call from God.

God said enough was enough…and I finally listened.  I had to make some changes.  The biggest was putting Him back in the center of my life.  You would think working in the church for all these years, preaching and teaching on these I would know better.  But being in the day to day activity of the church, my christian walk became just part of my job.  I had forgotten my love for God.  I had let busy work take over my relationship and ministry.  I was just BLAH!

The last few months have been amazing to see God in my life again.  I’m working to put myself out of the way again and let God move.   During the next few days I am going to share some things.

This song at Passion this year really has been my prayer for 2013.  Take a listen!

Chris Tomlin – Awake My Soul Lyrics (feat. Lecrae)

Chris Tomlin:
Breathe on me, breath of God, breathe on me
Breathe on me, breath of God, breathe on me
I come alive, I’m alive when you breathe on me
I come alive, I’m alive when you breathe on me

Chorus:
Awake, awake, awake my soul,
God resurrect these bones
From death to life, for you alone
Awake my soul

Speak to me, word of God, speak to me
Speak to me, word of God, speak to me
I come alive, I’m alive when you speak to me
I come alive, I’m alive when you speak to me

Chorus:
Awake, awake, awake my soul,
God resurrect these bones
From death to life, for you alone
Awake my soul

Lecrae:
Then He said to me,
“Prophesy to these bones and say to them,
Dry bones, hear the word of the Lord!
This is what the Sovereign Lord says to these bones,
I will make breath into you,
And you will come to life.”
So I prophesied as I was commanded.
As I was prophesying, there was a noise, a rattling sound,
And the bones came together, bone to bone.
And I looked, and tendons and the flesh appeared on them,
And skin covered them, but there was no breath in them.
Then He said to me,
Prophesy to the breath,
Prophesy, son of man, and say to it,
Come from four winds, oh breath, and breathe.

Chorus:
Awake, awake, awake my soul,
God resurrect these bones
From death to life, for you alone
Awake my soul

Awake, awake, awake my soul,
God resurrect these bones
From death to life, for you alone
Awake my soul

Lecrae:
Yeah, I’m not alone, I realize
I breathe out, I come alive
Your word gives life to my dry bones
Your breath tells death it can ride on
Awake me, make me a living stone,
A testament to your throne, I
I’m nothing without you, I’m on my own
The only one who satisfies my soul